Am I Stupid??useless??

Leaving the student life and get into the society, my life totally changed.if in the uni,you can still playing,enjoying the uni life becoz it is more relaxing...but when you come out to work in the society,no relaxing anymore!!all is work work and work..actually you also can enjoy the working life too if u like the job..i did like audit...but sometimes i feel stress,feel im stupid,useless,not comfortable, unable to perform my best...T.T

why?why did i have those feeling??erm..it is a long...story...

before the 1st day internship, i was quite nurvous because i scared i dunno anything when ppl ask me to do..coz..i totally forgot what i had learned before...finizhed exam,the things in the mind oso..bling**zero too!!^^but they said dun worry,senior will teach and sure we will not know so much thing coz we were new!!ok fine!

then few weeks had past and the manager started to give us some job...do u guess i can do the 1st job??haha..sure cant!luckily got a nice nice senior taught me..my colleague oso taught me...but.........sometimes when she explained,i totally blurr,coz i never do tat before...actually i need ppl teach me slowly..i need to understand all those things so that i can do..so ppl who wanna teach me should be a very patient person..haha..sometimes she will get mad if i still not understand after she explained..im really sorry about that..i dun wan to spoil ur mood but i who else can i ask?i was closed to u only...but if u feel that im asking u is a burden to u..so i wont ask you anymore..or maybe i will ask..but juz a few questions...actually my feeling oso not so good when i saw u mad,anger...maybe is my fault...im so sorry~besides,i my tears also will falling down if ppl suddenly shout at me and talking loudly to me...especially in front of others ppl..tat day i did wan to cry but i tried not to cry in front of u guys...and i know tat u r not meant to shout at me that day..its ok..i understand fren...

alright,another case...frens should help each other right??fren,i knew the way u talking,quite straight..but why lately i cant accept all those...maybe tat time i was quite sensitive or wat??u know wat,when i ask u about something that i dunno,u seems like nak ajar,tapi tak nak ajar...acuh tak acuh...u did that before so i ask u when i dunno...izzit my fault becoz of dunno...?i oso wish i know everything but im not!!but in contrast..u will ask me the things that i knew,u asked me nicely and i teach u nicely...why??u know what, i felt that u juz will be nice to me if u wanna know something from me??do u realize that?

so in the conclusion...i really hope that i could learn things faster,becum smarter...coz when the same condition repeated...i will alwaz feel that im very useless..stupid??

haha..sorry to the character above....i not meant to say this but i will feel more comfortable after released it...this is what i feel in the past 2,3 weeks...

im so sorry but i love you frens....

In Love With You

Just a gentle whisper, told me that you`d gone
Leaving only memories, where did we go wrong?
I couldn`t find the words then, so let me say them now
I`m still in love with you...
Tell me that you love me, tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me, and i will the there
I will be there waiting for you
I will always love you
I will always stay true
There is no one who love you like i do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad i will stand true
I am in love with you
Now we are here together, yesterday has past
Life is just beginning, close to you at last
And i promise you, I will always be there
I give my all to you
Living life without you is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever...
I will be there
I wil be there for you......^^